Cyndi Lauper Considered Suicide, She Reveals in New Book

Cyndi Lauper

Cyndi Lauper Suffered from Depression, Thoughts of Suicide

In her new book, slated to hit shelves later this month, Cyndi Lauper reveals that her life hasn't always been all rainbows and lollipops.

Seems the Girls Just Want To Have Fun singer had some dark days, that included thoughts of suicide.

Lauper reveals in her new autobiography, Cyndi Lauper: A Memoir, that she suffered from depression in the late 80s when her star faded for a bit.

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RadarOnline.com reports that Lauper considered suicide after splitting from her long-term partner and manager, David Wolff.

Lauper had made the long climb from poverty, a violent upbringing and life as a runaway teen to become one of the biggest pop stars in the 80s, but she admits, "I had come so far but felt like I had failed. I disappointed the record company because I didn't come home with an armful of awards like they expected. It was always like that; it was never enough."

She adds, "It was such a dark time for me. When I was living in that hotel I was two steps off of that balcony. I would go to the studio and then sit in my dark room and drink vodka. I had to spend most of my time alone. I was grieving. I thought the sadness would never go away."

What kept Lauper from following through on her thoughts of suicide? She says, "I never wanted a headline to read, ‘Girl who wanted to have fun just didn't'."

Lauper entered therapy and began the climb out of the dark, thankfully.

Lauper says, of those dark days, "I had no television, no stereo, nothing. I was still a kid and I was alone. A lot of times I couldn't take it anymore, so I just lay in bed all the time. When I really couldn't deal with anything, I used to get the shakes, just ­complete anxiety attacks."

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She adds, "I'd empty out the cupboard under the sink and crawl under there. I'd stay in there ­because it was enclosed, and slowly I would begin to feel better."

Lauper's memoir will be released later this month.